Fast forward to 2011 and I feel as if I've come 180 degrees from the heartbroken lovelorn lady hiding behind my alter ego I once was.
I haven't posted or submitted any type of writing other than facebook status updates and the occasional tweet for nearly two years now. I recently posted several choice entries from blogs past and it was interesting to see where my head was in relation to where it is now. There are clear patterns across the years, but most of those entries were from a sad dejected angry person with no other outlet. Humor was and is at the crux of most of my writing, but the difference is now, now I intend to share the part of myself I kept buried away for so long.
Oooh oooh, ooh ooh oooh, I got a new attitude.
As I'm writing this, the confirmation that Osama Bin Laden's death has come through and people are besides themselves. Sure, I've got a lot to say about that, but I'll just let everyone else in the world handle that one. The networks are working overtime I'm sure.
As is/was my M.O. and the reason de etre for this entire blog, there was a woman involved. I swear I think I've typed the phrase "There's always a woman involved," in nearly all of my blogs. But 'tis true, there's always a woman involved.
I've been in and out of relationships or whatevering with individuals for a good four years now and still haven't felt a true sense of being fulfilled. Certainly there have been moments that have been gratifying, but for the most part I feel like my energy has been allowed to grow stale and stagnant. I don't mean that in a negative way, I just feel that I forgot how to challenge myself, in order to better myself.
That's what lead me to the weight loss. I am tired of being heavy, overweight, fat, obese. Whatever, you want to call it, I'm tired of it being my reality. The true measure of which happened when I could no longer comfortably fit into a piece of my favorite clothing accessory. I joined the local community center and started a daily regimen of working out. Along with that I began to chart my progress and kept tabs on my caloric intake. To date, I've lost 50lbs and I'm definitely feeling good about it. I've still got quite a bit of weight to take off, but I'm finally in the mind set to make it happen.
Oh, this is the book I'm reading. I've actually read it a number of times, but I've found it motivates me. It isn't an easy read, but it's a darn good one, fascinating even.
I've got to cut this short tho, it's already 1am and that 630am alarm is gonna come hard and fast. Til next time.
