She's Just Not That Into You

I'm finally coming to terms with that phrase and I haven't even seen the crappy movie.

Fuck that I've been living my own version of it for the past coupla years. Ugh. I love women, but not the BS to often comes with dating them.

Not to mention that I had met a good deal of them on myspace and not for nothing, none of them are around now. Well, there are a couple that I will still say hello to in the streets and inquire as to their well being, but for the most part...myspace has been my str8 bootycall hookup site.

Actually, I was on another website...looking for easy hot chicks...onlinebootycall.com sounds sketchy right? Lemme tell you that website is far less sketchy than good ole Myspace, yet I still come back. I heart myspace, I mean really what are you gonna do?

I haven't been writing about them because most of them were my myspace friends and were definitely avid readers of my blog.

I mean AVID.

My writing is a part of my charm...it's part of my allure. I love to write and I think I do a decent job of it...lemme know that I've got an audience and I'll write even more.

But as of late I couldn't really write down my thoughts because everything that I was going through was directly related to one of these women. There have been about five of 'em now...maybe more...no I didn't sleep with every woman I met on myspace, but you know, hey things happen. Anyway these were some amazing women each in their own right.


There's one that I'm still not quite over. She was always pretty open about were she was coming from and where she stood as far as our romantic interaction and inclinations went, but in the end I still ended up with a broken heart.

After her, there was another woman. Yup. And another. And another. But then there was one that really caught my attention. She was saying all the right things and I had envisioned a life with this woman. Yeah, she got in deep. But when things didn't work out with her...here comes the original girl to help those wounds heal.

...and me being the sensitive fool I am...I fell right back for her, knowing that she didn't want to be in a relationship with me [although she had no problem getting the sexy time from me, and I had no problem giving it] what was unhealthy about that was that I had actually fallen in love with her...only to not have that love reciprocated.


I took a long break from dating women and played the single role. That's when I met a local cutie...again on myspace. I actually made her acquaintance while I was dating one of the aforementioned ladies, but didn't follow through on anything...we ended up talking on myspace and eventually met. She wasn't the type of woman that I usually go after, but I was intrigued by that, opposites attract I thought...and she's a cutie, so why not.

Even though she was a sweetheart that was another interaction with a woman that went nowhere fast.


Those of you who know me, know that my pet peeves are few, but they do exist. This particular woman was flaky and inconsistent...something that is a major pet peeve of mine, needless to say that interaction ended up being a wrap. The difference with her was that I didn't let my heart rule my actions.

With that particular woman I learned how to actually date someone without going straight for the monogamous relationship. I felt quite empowered and enlightened actually.


I mean women are interested in me, but I wasn't dating a lot. I'm single and I'm always gonna be single, but it was nice to finally figure out how to enjoy someone's company without turning it into a Shakespearen experience. After her a few more women came in and now I officially feel comfortable dating. Getting to know these women.

Of course right as I start to feel this way, I hook up with one girl who leaves me all sort of puzzled. Hook up in the sense that we chilled, enjoyed each other's company and she left me wanting more. Thing is she is so unavailable...so so so unavailable. And that is the problem that I had/have...going for the unavailable women so that I can justify being single for so long. It allows me to not have to focus on myself if my other half is the one with the bigger problems.

This one though, she's a fallen star and of course my Cancerian self is ready to snatch her up, nurture her, bring her back up to speed and make her all mine. But, given my track record...she too will have me writing bad poetry.

Then there are the other women who've come along...luckily enough I didn't meet them on myspace...I actually met them in real time and each one of them moves me in some way shape or form.

The point I'm making isn't an important one...I needed to get that off my chest so that I could feel free to blog again.

and on that note...can we talk about my latest girl interests?

(yet another oldie from 2009, but once I post the old ones, I will write new ones...it's actually veeery interesting to read these older posts now!!!)